Oxygen. Just google “air oxygen content historically” without the quotation marks, and be amazed how much you don’t know.
Humanity, life, evolved to a certain mix of conditions on Planet Earth, long long time ego. Billions of years? Long time.
Billions of dollars I may understand… 1-2-3 and I count to billions. But billions of years? So between 1 and 2 I have to wait a year? lol… I can’t fathom that. So a long long time ago is enough for me.
How anyone has ever taught is wrong… and how it has lead to a humanity to being unhappy chasing happiness…
In this long and life threatening situation of mine, where I still can’t see the end of it… I have truly lived my invented purpose: ‘living on the edge, generating distinctions of transformation for humankind’.
Source says I saw more than the two I’ll share in this article, but alas, I can’t remember those. I guess i was too sick to retain those beyond the two.
I could be present 10% of the time… the rest of the time has been like a madhouse… scripted by mad TV writers, like loud obnoxious TV dramas I hate with a passion. There has been nothing I could do other than moan.
We all live in a ditch-like space that gets deeper and maybe even narrower as we go along.
A ditch is like a tunnel except that it is open to the sky.
People don’t know they live in a ditch. Why? Because all they know is the ditch. It becomes everything because the only thing that would distinguish the ditch is ‘not-ditch’. But because a person in a ditch can only see what is in the ditch and the dirt that is its wall, ditch can’t be distinguished from the inside of it.
My job, in this article, is to cause you to SEE, aka distinguish your ditch so you can have more than just that in your life.
I remember a few years ago a person shared that doing the Landmark Forum allowed her to experience more elbow room. Because in a narrow di
After I almost fell off the face of the planet… people asked me: how can I help you? What can I do for you?
And until now I have answered: there is nothing you can do, thank you very much for offering.
But upon looking at my bank account balance, I decided to ask for something. Something like a win-win.
Not money… my philosophy is ‘if I didn’t earn I don’t eat’. But I learned something a long time ago, heard it again many times since. But unfortunately sometimes it takes 20-30 years to move on something.
One day a Zen master told his students that he was going to teach a new technique of shooting an arrow.
He instructed his students to cover his eyes with a cloth and then he shot his arrow. When he opened his eyes, he saw the target with no arrow in it and when he looked at his students, they looked embarrassed because their teacher had missed.
The Zen master asked, ‘What did you learn?’
They responded, ‘We thought you would show us how to shoot at the target without looking.’
The Zen master smiled, ‘No, I taught you that if you want to be successful in life, don’t forget
Something or someone always tries to kill you, kill your confidence, kill your success.
It is not wrong. It is the nature of reality.
And unless you learned this really early on, you are both ineffective at life, and always pissed. Pissed, as in frustrated, angry, upset, because the way the world is doesn’t match your expectations, your picture of what is fair.
One would think I had already known this… and maybe to a certain degree I have.
But not fully.
In this new health struggle where some bacteria is hellbent on killing me I am learning a lesson I should have learned a long long time ago… except I didn’t have anybody to teach it to me.
Most people, even some sayings suggest that dying trying is a good thing. But that supports most people who stop at tying and never get to doing. They have the sizzle of the steak, but never deliver the steak itself.
‘Not real, not real.‘ What happens when you can say that?
I may not live much longer, but while I am alive, I’ll do the work necessary.
I slept a total of two hours last night. Then I woke up with a start… could not go back to sleep… And the experience of I am suffocating every time I put my head down is not ever going to allow me to sleep again.
I had a rough night. I could barely breath, especially when I lied down. So I didn’t…
It’s been coming for about three weeks, and it didn’t respond to healing.
It felt likely that it was my last night on earth.
And I had no idea what was causing it. I sat on the edge of the bed. I sat on the chair by my computer. taking even just five steps felt like the end of me.
At a point around 7 am I had a thought. There was something familiar about the symptoms, or half of the symptoms. Wanting to poop, and nausea… When did I have that. Was it 2018? I think so. And then it was from eating something spoiled.
So energized by this new line of inquiry, I asked Source different questions. I started to take Goldenseal tincture a