My first awakening, rude as it was, was in 1979. I was 32 years old, had won first prize in an architectural competition, and I was in a mental health facility as an inmate.

Depression… I was depressed…

I didn’t know I was an empath, so I have no idea how much of what I felt was mine…

One day in the big circle I said something that got me thrown out of that big circle group.

Next day I was asked to do a test: find out what I like and what I don’t. I spent a lot of time with that test, because, honestly, I didn’t know. I didn’t know what I liked and what I preferred.

They made me retake the test, and I failed again. Holy Mackerel… I had no “I”. I mean I did have an “I” that threw its weight around, that won competitions, that got thrown out of groups, that pontificated and sympathized with people…

And yet there was no solid “I”… an “I” I could return to to be true to myself, to refuel myself, to be free to be myself. Continue reading →

I’ll do this workshop until I am satisfied that the method the way I teach it works…

We had results across the board: some came away moved to tears, some came away and quit coaching… Why? It brings up what you have been desperately trying to hide.

I’ll do the course and refine it and tweak it and mold it, until it works for every participant. Why? I like challenges, and I definitely finish what I start… lol.

When stuff happens, you go to fear, anxiety, trepidation, anger, frustration… you lose your power. This article is about how to pull back your powers with the correct use of correct language… It is not affirmation, afformations, positive thinking, visualization, etc… those, in my experience, have no real effect, they only have pseudo effect. Continue reading →

Value, worth is a very interesting concept. It tells everything anyone needs to know about you.

Commerce, and most interactions are value-exchange-based when healthy.

But who defines what is value and how much?

Before we can go deeply into that, let’s look what you have that is of value…

Some of it is of value to you, some of it is of value to someone else.

You have your time. Instead of doing anything you want with it, some of it you’ll turn into value that you can sell. In exchange of something that you value more or equally as your time Continue reading →

I refuse to be categorized as a healer. I have energies, I have knowledge, I have empathic “sight”, I can “diagnose”, not legally but factually, I can recommend… but I am not a healer… and yet.

Almost 30 years ago I was in a program called “Emotions Anonymous”, a 12-step program. I wanted to deal with my anger. My anger came out in really threatening ways, sending both myself and others towards the hills…

It was, on one hand, a learned behavior… both my parents had a difficult time handling their anger towards me…

One of the participants in the group was Hungarian, and very miserable. I visited him one afternoon. His place was up to knee deep in newspapers, every room, the garage, the kitchen, every inch except for a two foot wide path to crucial places.
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Why wouldn’t we want to fix what’s wrong?

Because nothing is wrong. It is what it is, it is how it is, and it is just a phase, it is just a place, it is just how it is, for now.

I am sure you are asking yourself: has she finally gone completely insane?

But I have always been like this… because this is the only place where you can be happy, growing, doing what you want to do… when nothing is wrong. Continue reading →

Shall I become popular, or shall I choose to do the work no one else can do but needs to be done? You either do one or the other…

I am still looking at how to become an influencer… [note]influencer: MARKETING a person or group that has the ability to influence the behaviour or opinions of others: The influencer is the individual whose effect on the purchase decision is in some way significant or authoritative[/note]

It’s not really my ambition… [note]ambition is a desire for a something, future, or a result that you are willing and able to work towards… as opposed to desire: desire is for a future or a result you imagined in the privacy of your mind, and expect or hope to befall on you without doing anything. Another aspect of desire is that it is always a desire to receive for the self alone… because you have no value to offer in return of what you wish for. And often you want what belongs to another… You hope that the powers that be… spirit, god, angels will prefer you and take from that other and give it to you.[/note] I am much more comfortable doing my thing and barely be noticed. But it seems that in today’s day and age, unless you do a lot of hoopla, loud, self-promotion, partnering up with high visibility people, and other fashionable strategies, becoming an influencer is impossible.

I am still looking if I really want to become an influencer or not.

I learned about becoming an influencer from Tai’s free video on trend stacking.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynAExlX21QU

A trend is, in this context, something that is becoming a fashion more and more. Something that has reached the masses and now they are jumping on the bandwagon. Popular…

My body is responding to this idea with massive indication that this is not my path. And yet…

And yet… increasing my sphere of influence, [note]sphere of influence: a field or area in which an individual or organization has power to affect events and developments. In my case, the number of people who find it worthwhile to follow my articles and buy my products.[/note] even just doubling it would mean I can work with more people.

Judging from the past, each additional 100 people deliver, on average, one person who can and is willing to do the work to become worth a damn. Continue reading →