When you think you are an insomniac… or when you are always tired and you suspect your sleep has issues, what “scientists” do is hook you up to “feelers” to see to what degree reality matches your experience.

I have heard of people who have sleep apnea and wake up hundreds of times a night, just enough to start breathing again. Their consciousness records it… but their conscious awareness doesn’t

Consciousness and conscious awareness are not the same. Not even close.

In fact consciousness is not related to conscious awareness… it would be more appropriate to call it The observer, or The Witness.

How would you know?

Now that enough of you are using the consciousness wakeup audio, the Big Bundle (stupid name, isn’t it?) and consciousness instruct your unconscious awareness, whatever that is, to do repairs… do you actually know about any of it?

If you do, then you are different from me. I don’t. Continue reading →

You probably haven’t realized that you have a fixed emotional response/reaction to everything.

I identified it a few years ago. I only realized that it is everywhere just this morning… Why not before? Because to identify it, one needs a self-awareness number higher than 30%.

Is that possible for a homo sapiens? I doubt it.

OK, what is mine? It is what I call “personally offended”. The lips slightly protruding an a pout, and the corner of the mouth turned down.

What is the age of this “mood”, or this emotion? I’d say 3 years old. Continue reading →

Humans, YOU, want to fix things…

Fixing is forceful, and narrow cone of vision.

Today’s solution is tomorrow’s bigger problem.

Your identity, the things you are known for, your typical behavior have all been fixes… solution to some perceived problem and now you are like a puppet on a string… powerless, inauthentic, and incapable of being happy, peaceful, joyful, and fulfilled.

For example, I experienced getting hurt because I trusted someone… so I decided to never ever ever ever trust anyone again… I became fiercely independent… in everything. Continue reading →

… or not f… it up… Same thing. both result in no peace, no joy, no good results.

Why would you have that expectation?

Given the reaction you have to that expectation, given the reaction you have to that sentence, devastation when you actually do f… something up, suggests, that you expect yourself to go through life never making a mistake… i.e. Perfection.

You are not alone. Some people give their whole life to that “not”… to that unreality… and suffer, become total underachievers, and altogether unpleasant people no one really wants around. Continue reading →

Emotional Intelligence is a buzz word, an expression, that no one explains, and yet, everyone pretends that they know what they are talking about.

No such THING as emotional intelligence… it is made up.

And yet: some people maneuver life better than others, have less upsets, upheavals, self-hate, than others.

They take obstacles differently than others. They are OK with themselves, and they don’t worry about what other people think about them. They are not attention, approval, drama seekers. They just do what they do… and let others do what others do.

We call those people emotionally intelligent.

I guess you are reading this article because you are not like that. Continue reading →

You are stingy with others… You don’t have energy to be kind, caring, supportive… Or if you do, maybe your family and friends are not kind or supportive to you… Here is the why…

To be kind, etc… you need an abundance of surplus energy. If your body is in survival mode, the first things that NEED to go are the nice things for others… then for yourself. Some dogooders reverse the order…

People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don’t find myself saying, “Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner.” I don’t try to control a sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds. ~ Carl R. Rogers

That, being wonderful as a sunset, includes yourself, but…

You may be able to imagine yourself looking at others this way… but looking at yourself as perfect, wonderful, and no need to change?

Rarely if ever…

Occasionally I stand in front of my bathroom mirror and I like what I see. Occasionally. One minute out of thousands a week.

So why are we unable to even imagine that we are like the sunset… or the sunrise: my favorite. Continue reading →

What’s going on?

Quite a few of my students and clients are in this predicament, I even found myself feeling starved for “companionship”… for someone to hear what I have to say.

What is this about?

The answer, the elegant answer comes from a movie, Shall We Dance? where Susan Sarandon hires a private detective to find out what her husband does every Thursday night, and why he is acting so different.

The private detective asks why Susan Sarandon’s character married this guy.

The answer is the answer to your question: “I wanted my life to be witnessed.” Continue reading →

I had an important and eye-opening insight today. A looking back…

Let me tell you the story so you get the fact that the likelihood of me ever discovering this was between none and zero.

It began some 30 years ago when I was a magazine publisher. Every time a magazine was already in the street, I went to my computer and cleaned up the space, I archived everything that was said and done, made room for the new issue. I did the same thing in the office.

I called this time and energy consuming step “cleaning from the root”, or alternatively “preparing for a new harvest”…

My life was organized, orderly, I was thin, vibrant, beautiful, and OK.

Then something happened. There is always something that happens before this process begins to really ramp up… but truth be told, it really begins around age 3… hidden for quite a while. Continue reading →

I don’t remember why, but I signed up to Simpleology, Mark Joyner’s program. [note]Mark Joyner: vibration 150… Why is it so low if he is so successful? Success and vibration are often go in different directions. If a person has too many predatory genes, like Mark Joyner (10) success is fueled by predatory needs. Predatory needs, like hunger, the need to procreate, the need to win, the need to be right, the need to dominate, are low vibration energies… lower needs.
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The interesting thing about Mark is that he also has high aspirations… but his methods all come from greed.[/note]

He created a new comic strip, the everyman’s superpower, and, of course, sold it with the same thing he advocates in the comic strip: desire.

Desire, what YOU know as desire, is a lower self vibration, fueled by greed, sexual energy, hunger, anger, vengeance, jealousy, anger… not something you want a lot of.

And even though it is a strong energy, and it may take you to success in some areas, it is destructive of who you are as a person, who you are as a higher consciousness specimen of the  species.

I should already be used to it!

“Source”, or whatever it is I am talking to all day, is steering me to do work I didn’t intend to do: experience, test, fall flat on my face, half-kill myself or my business or my relationships.

OK, here is the havoc I have wreaked as a result of this “steering”… Continue reading →