The hardest thing to navigate, at least for me, is to take myself out of the center… Maybe because of my soul correction “Forget Thyself” but it comes back to make me miserable periodically.
I have been testy lately.
I have always wanted to be significant. Do significant things. Be admired… blah blah blah.
What I didn’t realize that like everything ego desire based, desire to receive for the self alone, it has a shadow side.
When you are significant, and someone doesn’t give you what you think they are supposed to… you are angry and miserable.
The concept of earning it, earning the light, earning the capacity
People who come to me don’t know that you cannot have anything long without earning it.
In Kabbalah they talk about the advance of Light… that you lost with interest… if you don’t do what you promised to do.
I learned this the hard way: I promised to send a stack of postdated checks as a donation to the Kabbalah Centre. Then I realized that it wasn’t going to work for me, and didn’t send the checks.
When I made the promise, the result was almost instant: I got several orders, and I made a lot of money that day.
I had an interesting insight yesterday: you don’t know what it feels like to have courage available to you.
When you apply courage, it just feels like you are doing what you are doing, what you were afraid of. Normal.
Which indicates to me, that courage is a paradigm-shifter.
Paradigm is like a glass ceiling. A one-side mirror. When you are in a higher paradigm, you can see what is below you, but if you are still in a lower paradigm, you cannot see what’s above. In fact you don’t know there is something, anything.
Please read my email exchange with an exceptional student of mine…
I want you to learn something from it: my process, how to write intelligent emails (not mine, lol) and how to look at my articles in a constructive way.
Also, if you are someone like a doctor, a scientist, my method probably drives you crazy… I seem disorganized, have no answers to many questions… I have had people quit my programs complaining about that.
I this article I explain why things are the way they are, why I work the way I work… It’s obvious that it’s not for everybody… no clear cut anything…. 🙁
As I am dealing with the issue of courage, I realized something that I had never quite seen before:
All the quotes, all the memes, all the nice sayings on the internet have one function only: to make you stay the same.
And by same I mean driven by ego, fear, cowardice, slothfulness, superiority, pretense… etc.
Now, that is a bold statement, after all those quotes and memes, and nice sayings, and even coaching claim and sound and look inspiring. And therein lies the mischief:
They suggest that you can just simple want it more, choose it, believe it and then you can have it… whatever the
I have been wrong in thinking that humility is the ultimate stumbling block. It seems that humility can help the mind withdraw from the “I don’t need to hear this I already know everything” stance, and allow you to learn, and use your other faculties.
But I can now see, that without courage first activated, present and in working order, humility won’t be accepted, because it takes courage to get out of the mind.
I hate that this is so… after all I spent so much time attempting to activate humility, with no success.
What or who makes the decisions in your life? About important things…
This question is long overdue.
It came up because of the conversation I was having with 10 of my best students.
How to be in the face of fear.
I bet you know that it takes courage to grow. Growth means growing into uncharted territory. For you, not uncharted in general, uncharted for you. Much like going to shop in the supermarket
Some 10 years ago I did a year long course, called Partnership Explorations. It was intense, incomprehensible, and difficult.
In Hungary, in some high schools, you can choose, at age 15-ish to pursue “real” or “humanities”.
The hardest thing to navigate, at least for me, is to take myself out of the center… Maybe because of my soul correction “Forget Thyself” but it comes back to make me miserable periodically.
The concept of earning it, earning the light, earning the capacity
I had an interesting insight yesterday: you don’t know what it feels like to have courage available to you.
Please read my email exchange with an exceptional student of mine… 
As I am dealing with the issue of courage, I realized something that I had never quite seen before:
I have been wrong.
What or who makes the decisions in your life? About important things…
I activate a new capacity. If you used it, a whole new world would open up for you… But for you nothing happened… But what just happened?