I often catch myself stingy… if that is really what the beingness is
Some 30 years ago I started a magazine. I didn’t want to put my own picture in the magazine, so I put a woman’s picture there who was a lot like me, instead.
It was self-protection, the sign of an intense aversion of being touched by someone I didn’t want to be touched by. I can feel it now that I am talking about it.
The same feeling but weaker comes up when I think of all the people coming to my site who I would not want to talk to.
A few years ago I listened to a talk by Frank Kern (personal vibration: 300). The video of that talk…
…is almost two hours long… bookmark it if you don’t have time to listen to it in its entirety. I
Business, marketing, and other business things are not my favorite things to learn or do. Even though I come from a family where three out of five (I have two brothers) have MBAs, and my father was god of the topic in Hungary…
I gave up going for it one credit short: an enemy of my father would not let me pass an exam…
Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.
~Thomas A. Edison
I don’t like these topics because they need organization, creating systems, and I am not good at them. I tighten up when I have to do things I am not good at.
I could learn to be good at them, but everything comes at a cost, time and brain cells taken away from what I am
The biggest threat to “them” is the man who stops jumping
There is an issue that I need to address: your trained Chemophobia.
You have been trained to bark up the wrong tree.
You have been trained to have Chemophobia, and it is bigger threat to your health than the chemicals themselves.
Why? For the same reason that you are attracted to film stars’ sex life… You don’t know chemistry, but you understand some words. So you are morbidly curious…
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I have been a spiritual, raise-your-vibration teacher for a while… and when someone asked what qualified me to teach, I could say that the fact that I did it myself, and went from a vibration of 185 to 930, consciously and with my eyes open.
Now, having done that is fine and dandy… but can I teach it? Good question.
But let’s look at another area: health.
At some point I got really clear that unless you have energy to do the work, unless you have coherence to do the work, unless you are well enough… I can’t help you much.
But I had a problem, an integrity issue: I myself wasn’t well enough to prove to you that I kno
I find out that I misunderstood something. It cost me… It always does.
I ask the question: I wonder what else I misunderstand? I wonder what else I misread? I wonder where else I am sure I understand and I don’t.
Or I make a mistake… Where else do I make a mistake like this? Or this same mistake…
Because how you do anything is how you do everything!
I sent out an email last night asking for people who haven’t raised their hand to work with me yet, to raise their hands if they are potentials to work with me.
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But enough is enough… and I am a little flapped… lol.
I can feel the corners of my mouth pointing downward, and I am pouting a little.
I screwed up… I did all the things I tell you not to do… lol…
I alternate between laughing out loud and pouting. Actually quite funny. Not dead.
The funniest part of this story (oops, I haven’t even told you what happened… in a little bit, ok?) the funniest part that this happened right after I watched, for the third time, the episode in the 67 steps where you are warned to double secure yourself against mistakes and the cost.
I was nodding… I heard it from “I already know” and the next thing I know I crashed my windows setup… and bam… all my files are gone.
What you are, instead alive, is a walking dead, resigned, and settled for the little that, it seems, life has to offer. To you. You see others, seemingly happy, seemingly alive, and you feel regret, shame, and envy.
Your heart, where rain forests and colorful birds, and life used to live, is devastated. The lush rain forests gone, the birds gone, life: gone.
Your ups and downs are tiny, not like a roller coaster. They are about money, or noise, or that you are fat, or skinny, or that you are aging. Irrelevant circumstances.
Maybe it is about someone being sick, maybe dying… but that is also a circumstance.
I have a student whose company moves earth. That is their business. Parking lots, roads, leveling the ground.
Unless you have a clear picture, a clear and accurate mental representation of what a job entails, you can’t bid successfully on it: you may lose your shirt if your mental representation was off. ((The doctor’s mental representation of the state of my injured ear was neither clear nor accurate, and therefore his suggestions to me were way off the mark. This was the topic of my article yesterday…))
I often catch myself stingy… if that is really what the beingness is
I am quite unflappable…
