You… the good, the bad, and the ugly. Team you…

Yesterday I shared with you the evolution of my Self. It’s like Beethoven’s Fifth… Victorious.

When you look at what I wrote and your life, you may get depressed, feel inferior, and go into despair.

Don’t.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4IRMYuE1hI

  • First off: don’t compare. It is comparing apples to oranges… your job is not to live my life: it is my job.
  • Second: you can’t see everything in another’s life… so you are jumping the gun.

Here is dark stuff in mine…

I am writing this article, so that you know

How to grow some balls… at least seemingly

grow-some-balls-2As I have mentioned, I have signed up to an expensive course that teaches a marketing method to pick the right people that are a good match for what I am attempting to do: take a group of people to the level of human being, the next evolutionary level for the species.

Signing up opened a can of worms.

Several daily emails, and a slew of offers, all beyond my need, all beyond my budget.

Today, a week into this campaign, the fifteenth video, the offer is 20 thousand dollars… and I am ready to throw in the towel.

It is like being in a restaurant,

…asking for a bowl of soup… That is what I wanted, that is what I can afford.

But they don’t le

It’s my 45th anniversary that I graduated from architecture school. I am old…

01-livewelllakewoodIt put me into a walk-down memory lane mood, and I revisited some events in my life I haven’t remembered in decades.

For example the only person I ever saw as compatible, left after a few weeks, without saying good bye.

I could grieve it, but I think it was fortunate. I loved him too much…

When you love someone or something too much, you put your own self interest on hold, and become a slave to that person or thing…

In hindsight this is why I was so disproportionately captivated and mortified by a “Criminal Minds” episode, where the wo

Can you be crying and be unphased? Does the White Lotus cry?

the white lotus, the symbol of being unphasedCan you listen to insults to your family, your god, your country and be unphased?

Can you watch death and grieving and be unphased?

I am unphased 91% of the time. Very few things pull me out of the equilibrium, where I need to recover so I can return to being well and unphased. All of them I self-created, none of them are real.

I cry a lot. I feel people’s grief, I feel centuries old sadness, I feel the pain of not being allowed to grow, or even to live.

I am re-reading an book about the story of a family, the Levis, through 800 years

Self-possessed… living from the Witness position, living from Consciousness

self-possessing

The question in your life is: who possesses who? Who possesses what?

But the answer to that question, albeit it is fashionable to think that the guy/gal with the most toys wins, will surprise you: the person who possesses himself wins, every step of the way.

I pretty much don’t know anyone with any level of self-possession: it can be measured.

People are like leaves blowing in the wind, flotsam on the ocean… out of control, hoping for a favorable wind… lacking what can only developed by rigorous practice.

Rigorous? Practice? Please stop laughing… you are out of control!

But like anything of value,

Addicted to Drama


What do I call drama?
Every negative, uncomfortable, unpleasant feeling that you feel, experience, indicates drama. A story played out inside you. While you are involved in that drama you are not involved in life, you are taking an entertainment break: your relationships, your health, your work…

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