I started to read the book by Edward Deci, “Why we do what we do. Understanding self-motivation”.
This is the first book, that I know, that defines self the way, or similarly the way I do…
To become a person, to have autonomy, self-determination, self-expression, integrity, self-motivation, the most important job is to find the self, by distinguishing what is the driver of all your actions, whether it is inner or outer.
And if it is inner… is it the self, or is it the “not-self”?
Greed, narcissism, hate… area inner motivators, but they are all the not-self. So are all the “negative” emotions, like frustration, haste, the desir
I was lead to an old article of mine. Controversial, and I bet not very useful.
I wrote it four and a half years ago. I have grown a lot since then.
In the article I was attempting to guide you to detect truth value, estimate the vibration teachers and products… without muscle testing.
In the article I was making the same mistake I have been making, all my life: supposing that you can see patterns, that you can see behind the curtain, that you can see more than you actually can.
Emotional intelligence ((the capacity to be aware of, control, and express one’s emotions, and to han
The psychologist, Paul Ekman. who discovered the micro expressions slowed down the film to see the emotion that gave the suicidal woman’s despair away.
Slowing down your reactions will show you your real emotions… so you know, so you know what you are running away from.
Slowing down you may be able to find your strait and narrow… your path to your own happiness and fulfillment.
Fast isn’t going to cut it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ojT2k6Cwss
The fence that is built fast will fall down fast… and it is true for everything.
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I used to be a course junkie. I have recovered… This morning’s incident is a good indicator…
I found myself this morning unable to connect. Connect to Source…
When I closed my eyes, I was buzzing…
I muscle tested: Am I tired? The answer was “yes”. Shall I rest? The answer was “yes/no” Shall I meditate? The answer was “yes” Shall I meditate for five minutes? “yes”
I closed my eyes, and within seconds I had this huge upheaval, with lots of tears.
Now, what the heck is that about?
I didn’t forget that I have been downloading the Day of Power energy over the past 36 hours… and whatever is there, spiritually, can spill out, and be gone… reall
I am a Kiva lender. I circulate about 400-500 dollars, lend it, and lend it again. $25 a clip.
Kiva has been looking for find an angle to have more people be inspired to lend money.
After I lent another $25 from my seed money (I haven’t added any new money to Kiva for years now!) a video popped up.
In it an Indian woman shares that her fields were mortgaged and it was near impossible for her to make a living. Then she got a Kiva loan, got herself cows.
The cows give her five liters of milk a day she can sell.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-MDPl3ZeNtk
This allows her to make a good living, and she has paid off the mortgage on her lands.
I started to cry.
Why? When I cry I rarely can tell why I am crying, the squeezing painful emotions don’t tell me what is going on…
So I watched it again… and no, I am not masochistic, I wanted to know.
I used to lead introductions to the Landmark Forum.
There is a part in the introduction where you attempt to distinguish for people that most of what’s knowable for a human: you don’t know. Moreover: you don’t know what you don’t know.
Then you ask a simple question: Can you give me an example of what you don’t know that you don’t know?
In most groups there is at least one person who tries… Everybody laughs… because the answer to that question can only be: I don’t have an example… You can give an example of what you used to not know but now know… but that is an answer to a different question.
Now, one of the beauties of reading is finding stuff that you didn’t know that you didn’t kn
It’s a normal day to me: I went deep inside the energy body of a person in Singapore and got in touch with her life, her urges, how she thinks, and what pains she has. I pulled her energetic attachments.
I was feeling her grief, and inner storm for an hour or two, while she was digesting the information.
She has calmed down, maybe because it is really late at night in Singapore.
And yet I am still with her emotions…
I am taken deep into the book I just finished reading, a novel about a couple who lost their 2-year old son.
I was struck with the accuracy of the description of the emotions, and wondered if the author wrote from her experience, or if she is an empa
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Most people live in a constant “this is not right… this is not where I am supposed to be, this is not how I am supposed to be, this is not what I am supposed to do” jerky place.
It seems inevitable, it feels bad, and all of it is based on delusions, pretenses, and lies.
Obviously you can’t see your delusions. That is your “reality”.
But… if you don’t feel good, if you don’t see clear, if you don’t have a 360 degree view of the world in most issues… they you can be sure you have delusions.
and… if you don’t go for growth, learning, profound well-being, fulfillment, expertise… they you can be sure your life and actions are based on delusions.
I started to read the book by Edward Deci, “Why we do what we do. Understanding self-motivation”.
The psychologist, Paul Ekman. who discovered the micro expressions slowed down the film to see the emotion that gave the suicidal woman’s despair away. Slowing down your reactions will show you your real emotions… so you know, so you know … 
It’s a normal day to me: I went deep inside the energy body of a person in Singapore and got in touch with her life, her urges, how she thinks, and what pains she has. I pulled her energetic attachments. … 
