It comes up for me 4-5 times a year, to ponder who had the true grit… the little girl or the big drunkard marshal? ((One of the main reason I love the Coen brothers in this movie is because they give opportunities to famous actors who never had a chance to prove they can act, an opportunity to act. Like Matt Damon. OMG…
As I said in my last blogpost, my 72-name is “Forget Thyself.”
In my “Your Soul’s Purpose” process it was worded this way “Bring The Divine to Everything.”
different wordings, neither of them made a difference, until today.
As I was reflecting on the last article I wrote, it occurred to me that one of my “unanswerable questions” is: “Am I smart enough?”
If a question is unanswerable, you want to know the answer all the more. So I have been asking this question since time immemorial, and I have been getting yeses and nos… never any clarity.
I have been asking the wrong question, and when you ask the wrong question, your attention is on the wrong thing. (I could ask
Good question, right? You were just about asking that… Gotcha!
OK, simple question, simple answer.
First I tell you what I am not:
I am not a Kabbalist. Kabbalists study, practice, and teach Kabbalah full time, for many many years. It could be even said that being a Kabbalist is like an insider… you need to be appointed.
I am not a teacher of Kabbalah
I am not a guru
I am not someone who knows a lot about Kabbalah but doesn’t live it.
OK, then what am I?
Well, I was first introduced to Kabbalah by a friend of mine (who is accidentally out of my life now… but more about it later.) My introduction happened by
I just learned something terrible about myself. A lot of people hear me as if I were their father.
You see, in my family I was the dunce… meaning stupid. And even though I had straight A grades, and I was good at everything I tried, I remained stupid for my family.
How this works I don’t know. But this seems to be the dynamic: people make a decision about you, and then they never really look at you again.
You take it on, as the truth, and freeze into it. You allow it to guide you through life.
With me it was a little different, because I am defiant. I am not defiant to the person who speaks it, I am defiant to the saying. I am going to prove them wrong.
According to Kabbalistic wisdom, the soul is not active in any of us until a certain age. 12 for girls and 13 for boys.
The soul’s job is to cause character, the soul’s job is to help you find out who you are. The Self.
Many of you have not managed to distinguish and build a Self.
A Self is your “I” that is independent and defensible from other people’s opinion, and from even your own opinion of you when you make mistakes.
I know this is a mouthful, so let me elaborate:
First aspect of a strong self: You have a strong Self, and someone says you are stupid, or you are brilliant… and your Self doesn’t get shaken up by that. Doesn’t feel a
As we saw, the two capacities, humility: (saying: I don’t know), and seeing the big picture/looking at the thing inside the big picture, are the most predictive of people who can and will correct their faulty mental picture of reality.
Of these humility is primary.
Humility is what gets us out of our head, and makes us look again.
The mood of this: maybe I didn’t see it right!
We all know people who didn’t look twice, and walked into a trap, walked into disaster with their heads high, no idea that the trap is there.
And how you do anything is how you do everything. So if that is you: it is all over the place for you, in every area of your life.
People make the changes, the tiny, near invisible changes in what they see, what they do, how they do it, because it is their choice. ((In health, wealth, love, and fulfillment.))
What does this mean?
When you make a change because you saw that you needed to, then that change can become permanent. It becomes part of who you are.
Today (9/29/2016) I saw something I did not see before… And it surprised me, and filled with compassion.
The seed level, the dominant belief of this soul correction is that something inherently wrong with them, and that they are worthless.
Of course it is not the truth, it’s a dominant belief you are born with… I have traces of it, and my soul correction is “Forget Thyself”… and every achievement, every accomplishment I had for 50 years or more was to fix it.
It cannot be fixed because it is not true. And therein lies the problem: what do you do with something that is not fixable?
Unevolved “Removing Hatred” people hide it. And they pay a price. A big price. I have two people in my family with this soul correction… one died at age 4