How you have trained yourself to be a self-hating, powerless puppet

La_confessioneConsciousness, Source, is using me and my life, and my work to map out the human condition.

It’s been consciously so for about five years now.

When something, a sneaky undertow could not be seen on other people, I had to go through the experience to see it.

Without me being cheerfully game, I could say that it is the worst part of my life.

But, remember, the purpose I have invented for my life is to go to the edge, live there a bit, and come back sharing what I s

The story you so diligently protect… that you lie for, you die for…

not-pretty-enough-smallerThe single reason most people don’t want to work with me is this: I will rob them (attempt to) of their sob story. ((Sob story: a repeating way to be miserable, to lose out on life, to be beaten down))

What’s a sob story?

Well, everybody has one… It was born after an incident in early childhood.

Something happened, and you made a decision about yourself, about the world, about your mother.

Some people have interlocking decisions, making the sob story as strong as a Greek myth.

As long as your sob story is intact, you lie through your life to mai

Do you have an integrated life or a bunch of things you do?

integrated-lifeOne step in the 67 step program is to look what area of life isn’t integrated into your life… At first I could not think of anything, but then I had an insight: I started to look at what doesn’t get done… and I saw that anything that is not integrated into my life… doesn’t get done… or if it is, it’s a chore, drudgery.

cleaning, throwing stuff away, etc.

Why? Because your life has a purpose, probably hidden from your view. And that is your life, the life you want. The life you consider life, living… And everything else is death…

So before you integra

Do you have free will? Free choice? What is the ego’s role in that?

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Genetic determinism ((Genetic determinism is the mechanism by which genes, along with environmental conditions, determine looks and behavior.)) and the ego’s role in it.

I could also have made the title: your horoscope and your ego’s role in it, or your soul correction and your ego’s role in it.

There is a lot of different ways people define ego, but what if the ego is none of those. Not what Freud called ego, not what gurus call ego.

What if the ego is simply the mechanism by which the Selfish Gene perpetuates itself… like an old dog that is un

Happiness is a rope dance, walking a thin line. No wonder you are not happy… or how lack of humility is the big issue

Little more about humility… the cog in the wheel One detrimental functions of “lack of humility” as a capacity, is that you can’t change your mind about your past. My Playground program was about changing your mind by changing your … Continue reading → Related Posts: I got knocked conscious, I got knocked aware, and […]

What is YOUR Dark Side?

What is YOUR Dark Side?What is YOUR Dark Side?

Mine is, definitely, feeling like the only one who can be trusted. If I cannot be the only one… I am not even interested. Messiah complex… lol. Very funny.

What I need for this Dark Side to prevail is people who are not able, not willing to rise to the occasion… in spite of all my efforts.

I spent last week in that space… I am the only one, bah-bah-bah, sob-sob, hate-hate.

I was watching it with curiosity, not with resistance, and it left. On its own. It could not survive observation, it could not hide because of curiosity.

This

Lack of opportunities… giving opportunities… all myth… Dark Side suggestion

trading-placesMost people that complain about lack of opportunities would fumble the ball if they got it… Fumble means: drop the ball.

The illusion is that what is missing is an opportunity, the funding, the money to start something… is an illusion, and it is a very harmful illusion. It makes you look at blame… not yourself.

Similar to this: support is missing. If your parents, spouse, the society supported you… blah blah blah.

It’s all illusion… as in a lie. Bull crap.

There was an incident in my life that I go back to often.

In 1992 I had a big space at the back of my office, that was unused, but I pa

Fresh Insights on the DNA capacities activation

constant-gardener-blu-ray-cover-21As I often do, this morning I revisited a movie I saw a few years ago, The Constant Gardener.

In that movie, a British activist and a Kenyan doctor work to expose the pharmaceutical companies that experiment with new drugs on Kenyan people, who die from the experimental drugs. The activist and the doctor get gunned down by Kenyan hired thugs.

No big deal, so why am I weeping every time I think of it?

So this morning I looked at it.

This is what I saw:

It’s a purely cultural rule to see value in life. Without that rule, human gre

When you have a capacity activated… will you be great right away? Courageous, insightful, self-trusting?

believe it or not, Hitler was a lot like your egoWhen you have a capacity activated… will you be great right away? Courageous, insightful, self-trusting?

One of the “results” I’ve been seeing is this:

The ego is responsible, or at least feels responsible for your survival. It’s like a domineering mother… it professes to know what is good for you and what isn’t.

Mothers will stop you from becoming all you can be… unless…

Unless you bother to sweet-talk them into seeing your side of the situation.

Negotiating, sweet talking, enr

What are we going for when we ask you to use your activated capacities?

the-beasts-transformationWhat we go for is transformation.

Transformation is the magical seeming phenomenon when from one moment to the other, the world changes in front of our very eyes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aEBv9k1SZY
Of course the world argues that you can do anything you put your mind to, but this is a lie. You can do anything that you have the DNA capacities to do.

Capacities can be interpreted as abilities, but there is only a correlation. Talent would be a closer approximation of what DNA capacity is.

I have participated in transformational education for the past 30 years. Mos