The unanswerable question trap: it holds you by the balls

56104204Creativity comes from the “other than conscious” activity of the brain. The part that is neither linear nor word based.

I spend a large chunk of the day allowing it to do what it does…

It is allowing whatever is going on in the brain and in the body to go on… The best way is to make yourself busy.

Washing the dishes, vacuuming, doing the laundry, walking, or playing Freecell…

One of the useless things Tai teach is what he calls armchair meditation. He wants you to do serious linear thinking… which is proven to be a lot less accurate than your other than conscious brain doing the work unattended.

Why? Because the other than conscious mind is not corrupted. It doesn’t think one thing is good becau

Do you know what no feelings mean? You are dead…

cultural differences. in the west people take pictures, in Japan they move the train.

Do you know what no feelings mean? You are dead… While you are alive life is ups and downs, good feelings, bad feelings, neutral feelings.

The fact that you can’t feel your feelings doesn’t mean they aren’t there…

Yesterday was a weird day.

First I fell victim to taking things personally. I’d like to say it was funny, but taking things personally is not fun.

The whole day passed without a single email, and also without most of my regular clients and students visiting my site. I was checking.

Late afternoon I started to contemplate that I have lost my customers.

Then I look

An experiment that backfired

 

2349010-switchbacks-climbing-dades-gorge-0I’ve done a remarkable experiment.

It’s been remarkable because I didn’t mean to do it.
It’s been remarkable because what I’ve seen.

A week ago I got a “message” from Source, whatever that is, to stop doing the 67 steps. It suggested that something else should be started, but no indication of what that “something else” was going to be.

It’s just one week after.

Nothing has replaced the practice of doing the 67 steps.

I am sitting by my computer, and suddenly the thought floats up with the all too familiar feeling: “I should die. It’s not worth living.”

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Sunday Rants – Be a fly on my wall…

sunday-rantsSunday Rants

Want to get inside my head? What I think in my privacy? What I say to my faithful talking partner of nine years?

The calls last about 90 minutes, and you can have access to them.

Will you understand? Who knows? But they are really the politically incorrect thoughts and utterances of a “mystic”, whatever that means.

Are they interesting? I think so. Some calls more than others.

Want a taste?

I let you be a fly on the wall.

Today’s call is about

  • why you want to feel better instead of raising your vibration
  • why you don’t have to worry whether you are worth a damn…
  • how comfortable societies create generations of people who don’t want

If you want to raise your vibration to feel better… you are barking up the wrong tree.

93-6-23People who can’t tolerate negative, unpleasant, ambivalent feelings try to resist them, which is the surest way to make them permanent, or at least last.

What you resist persist… Carl Jung (1875-1961) says, and it is true. ((Psychologically speaking, resistance and resolution are at opposite poles. For resistance has fundamentally to do with not being able, or willing, to deal with the negative experiences in your life. And ultimately your happiness depends a lot more on handling—then letting go of—such adversities than it does, self-protectively, denying them, or fighting against them. In addition, so does (unwittingly) holding onto their associated feelings of hurt, sorrow, anxiety, or anger.

Jung was talking about his research into what he ca

How to have the wind in your back? How to have a Silent Partner with immense power?

politically correct pansiesYesterday’s article was the tree that fell in the forest that didn’t make a sound. No one was there to hear it. Many read it, no one heard it. No echo. ((And I predict the same will happen to this article… lol. Catch me giving a hoot…))

Why? How come?

Probably because you were reading it from the rarefied air of positivity. Or some other filter blocked the genius and the simplicity of the blueprint I was so very proud of.

I actually knew that this was the best article I have EVER written. But it made no echo.

Why? Really why?

In my last Talk to Me call I asked one of my students to get angry. And do it in any language he wishes.

Because without anger you can’t ac

Why do we have an ego, and how can we make it really useful? You don’t have any part that is not useful!

he-who-doesnt-laugh-probably-didnt-get-the-joke
I just had a “conversation” with a student, where I suggested that she uses ego to support her growth.

From her answers it has become clear that “using ego” is not a commonplace conversation, and that it needs instruction.

So let’s see what ego is, and what it isn’t.

Ego is a lot like a kitchen knife: you can use it for good, for useful, or for harm… kill with it. You can also use it to clean it under your nails… somewhat useful, but not the right tool…

You can also call it bad, and ban it from your house. ((It is also a lot like a nail. It concentrates the energy so it can go through thick planks

Where did this humanity-wide phenomenon of being so weak… living like a putz come from?

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Putz: putz
noun
1. a stupid or worthless person.
2. vulgar slang: a limp dick.
verb: putz; engage in inconsequential or unproductive activity.
origin: 1960s: Yiddish, literally ‘penis.’

I meant to share student essays on how self-created rules keep them alienated from themselves, keep them playing safe and dead… not joyful, not accomplished, not living a life worth living.

Then I changed my mind.

I had two calls, where I was training, each, a person to take on a practice to activate the capacity to be with unpleasant, bothersome, disturbing feelings and actions. To be a MAN…

This capacity used to be active in humans… but because of the widespread positive thinki

Skeletons in your closet… suppressing them suppresses all your life

it-is-better-to-have-skeletons-in-your-closet-than-walk-with-no-bonesI completed the third round of the 67 steps, and my intrinsic Self told me: it is time for another kind of practice.

So I have been curiously waiting for the “thing” to show up, and today it did.

Actually it started two days ago, but I noticed it today.

I need to get on the chiropractic table periodically to adjust my hip, or it goes out of shape to the degree that my thigh bone jumps out of its socket. That is very painful.

So I got on the table today… and it’s a long process… and somehow I was looking into what started my hip pain, whe