Why do I feel lethargic?

Lethargic is a way of being where there is no energy to live, to move forward, and there is not even hope.

It feels like deflated, the life force that was there before disappeared.

Tiredness that doesn’t ease up with rest, a good night’s sleep, isn’t tiredness. It is probably lethargy, depression, or purposelessness.

Why meaning disappears… when the future to live for disappears.

Lethargic-2 I experienced lethargy after my first time winning a national competitio

Equality, racist, collusion, big words you throw around

race,racist, racismYesterday I used the free community van to get to two stores I cannot get to easily on my own.

Note: in the illustrations I am not taking sides. I am illustrating that there is confusion and disagreement in what is race, what is racist, what is racism, and what it does is it makes people rigid, lie about what they think, and vote for Trump… ugh.

The driver of the van, PhD in sociology, asked if it bothered me if he continued to listen to NPR radio ((National Public Radio)) . It was a public debate in Trump and if he was a racist.

I listened for at least half an hour, and observed that no one bothered to define what they meant by

How do you see yourself? how accurate is your self-image?

skiff ... are you in sync or out of sync with your self-image?The inner view and the outer view of who you are are vastly different. Your chances for success, love, happiness depend on the accuracy of your self-image. ((self-imĀ·age
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noun: self-image; plural noun: self-images

the idea one has of one’s abilities, appearance, and personality.
“sickness is an affront to one’s self-image and dignity”))

Do you know that people see you differently than you see yourself? And both you and other people see you differently than you actually are.

You may see yourself worse or better or just plain different than you really are… and so do others.

Your life would work better if the two views were closer. You’d h

You can have anything but not at the same time

4 door sports car: being a winnerLife, happiness, well-being, prosperity is achieved and maintained only on a narrow and hemmed-in path (the strait), the opposite of what you wish it were, the opposite you see others have, the opposite you see on television, on ads.

You have been duped. You have swallowed the lie, hook, line and sinker and you have been paying the price.

Your life is empty, purposeless, meaningless, and you have nothing to look forward to.

Last night I was pondering, instead of sleeping, ((which is quickly becoming my new habit, I mean not sleeping,)) what is the behavioral, emo

Life is a lot like traveling by train…

senior-man-traveling-train-15401290Life is like being in a train: you can look out on the left side, the right side, the back, the front… but it won’t change that you are on a train that will arrive to its destination, no matter where you look.

Most of us live this way most of the time.

We do our jobs, we do our relationships, we do our projects, we do our lives this way.

Fulfilling? No. Enjoyable? It depends…

Ultimately we are plagued by a nagging sense that we are out of control, that no matter what we do won’t change anything. Some of us feel doomed. Some of

Growth is like a spiral… only when you have made a full circle… that you see it

taking-a-showerThe 67 steps spiral… second take… I am at step two… and can see the territory I have covered.

There are a few incredibly useful distinctions in the 67 step program.

Of course, if you listen to the audios through the filter: true/false, right/wrong, agree/don’t agree, you’ll miss them all.

And it’s a pity.

How do I listen? I have said it before: I listen in theta mode… i.e. as if I were taking a shower. I get wet.

I don’t pick and choose which water droplet is right or wrong, true or false, and I don’t evaluate everyth

You block the flow… Spiritual Practices to get you out of your prison

98575990_24_news_la_346792cFew people are intelligent.

Intelligence is a state where you can see the sameness, where you see that life has no boundaries.

Of course it seems as if there were boundaries, but it’s an illusion… cells have walls, but it is permeable, you have skin, but it is permeable, you are a human, but you are just like everything else, built of cells, like most every living being, have genes, like every living being, and your body performs chemical miracles, every living moment.

But most importantly, you live as if you were

Soul evolution by Barry McGuiness

stockxpertcom_id33993541_jpg_dd979e1d463744138ce04478bcbc74f1Our ultimate aim is to become fully conscious and capable as unique individual expressions of All That Is.

It is a long journey, but thatā€™s okay because the soul is eternal.

Soul Evolution

The soulā€™s journey is really a process of evolving. This means growing in consciousness, steadily progressing through different levels or stages of consciousness.

How do we grow in consciousness? Through taking on challenging experiences in physical form. These cause us to make important, ā€œsoul-searchingā€ choices and call upon us to discover our inner resources.

But why in physical form? Why would a perfectly happy spiritual being decide to inhabit the physical realm with all of its limitations and difficulties?

It is precisely so that we can experience the state of what feels like total separation from others and from the rest of reality. Only by going into this physically separated human form can we know ourselves as beings in our own right, and not just as ā€¦ well ā€¦ undifferentiated blobs of energy. Being physical throws our experiences and choices into extremely sharp relief in a way that is not possible otherwise. This is how we learn who we are and how to become all that we are.

In other words:

Choice and the ramifications of choice provide the essential lessons of life. In a very real sense, you choose to be here in order to make choices.

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Each single step requires a whole lifetime to complete. In fact, each step usually requires more than one lifetime. Typically, the entire journey of 35 steps takes well over a hundred lifetimes.

So letā€™s look at the journey in more detail. Weā€™ll start with the five major stages of soul evolution through reincarnation.

The Five Stages

The Michael teachings describe a sequence of five ā€œcyclesā€ or stages of soul evolution. They are named after the stages of human development:

Each of these five corresponds to a specific level of development in capability and self-awareness within the individual soul.Ā As the soul goes through each stage, theĀ focusĀ changes,Ā moreĀ experience is gained, and consciousness expands.

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Incidentally, the same pattern of soul evolution has been identified by the hypnotherapist Michael Newton (right). His groundbreaking research was published in the best-selling book Journey of Souls: Case Studies of Life Between Lives (Llewellyn, 1994).

The books by Newton and his students draw upon thousands of transcripts of people who, under hypnotic regression, have re-experienced being between lives. From the higher perspective of their soul they are able to explain what happens after death and before birth. This includes information about the levels of consciousness through which reincarnating souls evolve.

What Newton and others have discovered is that souls between lives exist in light-form, and that each soul emanates a particular color of the spectrum which indicates its current level of consciousness.

The spectrum begins at white (all colors) but then goes through red, yellow, green, blue, to deep purple and violet. From low frequency to high frequency. The least evolved souls ā€” the ā€œnewbiesā€ ā€” have a pinkish hue. The oldest souls ā€” those nearing the end of the whole reincarnational cycle ā€” have a blueish hue.

Although the spectrum is a continuum, Dr. Newton has found that it can be divided into five distinct stages or levels of evolvement, from Level I to Level V. These can be mapped onto the five stages given in the Michael teachings, from Infant soul to Old soul.
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So, for example, souls in the middle (or third) stage of reincarnation are referred to as ā€œYoung soulsā€ in the Michael teachings and they are at what Newton would call ā€œLevel IIIā€. They will have a yellowish or golden hue.

(As an aside, both Newton and the Michael entity also identify higher levels of soul evolution which do not involve reincarnation.)

The stages of reincarnation (or soul age) can also be likened to the stages of metamorphosis we see in nature, such as egg, caterpillar, chrysalis, butterfly. In reincarnation, though, what changes is not the physical form but the mode of consciousness, especially the form of self-awareness and ā€” as a result ā€” the way of relating to others.

Soul ageĀ characteristics

Soul age affects how anĀ individual lives, thinks, acts, andĀ comes across to others.

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Stage 1 ā€” Infant Souls

Infant souls focus on immediate survival needs.Ā They flourish in simple environments close to nature, such as remote tribes or rural, pastoral settings.

In the context of modern society, however, they can come across as uncivilized simpletons or yokels, and may even be deemed to be psychopathic or have some sort of developmental disorder.

Psychologically, infant soulsĀ are naive, impulsive and ā€œpre-conventionalā€, acting on impulse or habit with little or no thought for consequences.

Because they lack both social understanding and self-inhibition, they are capable of committing antisocial or immoral acts without any sense of wrongdoing. As such, they do not fit well within modern society and may end up in prison or in psychiatric units.

While they may lack the moral principles, social graces and cultural understanding of older souls,Ā Infant souls are in a sense completely innocent, being without pretense or agenda.

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Stage 2Ā ā€” Baby Souls

In contrast to Infant souls, Baby souls think a great deal about the rights and wrongs of their actions.Ā Their lives are about safety, security, structure and order ā€” rigidly so.Ā They like to live inĀ communities that areĀ highly principled and ā€œcivilizedā€ (think of the Amish).

Baby souls come across to older souls as rather ā€œsquareā€ ā€“ strictlyĀ conventional and conformist. Both their beliefs and their actions are largely rule-bound, so they are often ultra-conservative, traditionalist, orthodox, upright, moralistic, religiously devout, and mindful of law and order.

That said, they will occasionally give in to temptation, or temper tantrum, and break the rules themselves ā€” but then might find themselves tortured with guilt and shame.

They are acutely aware of the rights and wrongs of peopleā€™s actions, including their own, though they have little insight into the motives behind them. Bad behavior is sinful, and thatā€™s that.

Stage 3Ā ā€” Young Souls

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Young souls tend to be extrovert, outward-bound, worldly, frenetically energetic, brash, competitive, political, ambitious and individualistic. Life at this stage is about thinking for oneself andĀ assertingĀ oneself as an individual.

Young soulsĀ are more ego-driven than others, keen to make their markĀ in the world. They are generally attracted to some form of worldly success ā€” fame, fortune, power, glory. In fact, they are more fearful of death than souls at other stages, and those who arenā€™t sure about life after death may be anxious to make a big impact on the world stage, to create some kind of symbolic immortality for themselves.

Young souls cling to their ownĀ opinions, with a certainty that their own perspective is the right perspective, and their way ahead is by far the best way.Ā TheyĀ are veryĀ aware of their own agendaĀ but do not really question it.

Stage 4 Mature souls

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Mature souls tend to be more reflectiveĀ than younger souls, with a growingĀ understandingĀ of self, growingĀ empathyĀ for others, and a desire for authenticity in both. Life is less about proving oneself, and more about exploring ā€œright relationshipā€.

Mature soulĀ consciousness is no longer egocentric, in the sense of being limited to oneā€™s ownĀ perspective and agenda, but is capable of accommodating multiple perspectives and different agendas. In fact, there is now aĀ tension between ā€œwhat I wantā€ and ā€œappreciating what you want,ā€ or between the personal and the interpersonal.

ThisĀ makes life much more complicated ā€” sometimes overwhelmingly so. On the one hand, mature souls reject narrow-minded values. Yet on the other hand, they are able to empathize with whoever holds those same values. Fixed opinions are replaced by a sense of ever-shifting perspectives ā€” ā€œIt all depends on how you look at itā€.

This disappearance of solid ground can beĀ hugely stressful, but it kicks off a search for deeper meaning and self-understanding, whether through art, psychology, philosophy or spirituality.

Mature soulsĀ tend to question everything, including their own motives, and are prone to do a lot of soul-searching (literally).

Stage 5 ā€” Old Souls

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Old souls tend to exude some degree of depth, gravitas or wisdom that is quite obvious. In children, it can be most striking (think: old head on young shoulders) For having moved beyond the stresses and conflicts of the Mature soul, Old soulsĀ have a growing sense of inner peaceĀ and freedom ā€” the freedom to enjoy being very much in the world, but not of it.

Compared to younger souls theyĀ are relatively calm, measured, untroubled and stable, unattached to social structures and cultural expectations, being sure of their own existence and inner strengths and their compassion for others.

On the other hand, finding themselvesĀ in a world that is so conflicted, chaotic, frantic, and superficial can be utterlyĀ depressing.

ForĀ Old souls, the aimĀ of life is to findĀ true self-expression and fulfillment. As such, they tend to go their own unique way in life, letting go and letting be, in a detached way that may seem very weird and eccentric to younger souls.

Late-stage old souls find themselvesĀ consciously participating in the evolution of all-that-is, and often focus on teaching spiritual wisdom with great compassion.

Note: These descriptions emphasize the differences between stages. In reality, though, there is a gradual blend from one stage to the next. A person at the start of the Mature stage, for example, will act mostly like a Young soul but with elements of Mature soul nature beginning to emerge.

The lessons of each stage

Here are the five stages of soul evolution through human reincarnation, together with the typical learning experiences associated with each stage:
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So we begin reincarnating as Infant souls, complete novices at physical existence. At this first stage we are largely in a state of incompetence and terror, frankly. But through experiences and choices we learn and grow. We steadily progress from being Infant souls to Baby souls to Young souls to Mature souls. Finally, we enter the fifth stage as accomplished Old souls, the experts of human existence.

As infant souls we learned about choices having to do with survival, as baby souls choices having to do with moral codes and ethics, as young souls choices having to do with mastery of achievement, as mature souls choices having to do with relationships, and as old souls choices having to do with the nature of oneness with the Tao. An infant soul would therefore not understand the choices of an old soul although an older soul would likely have more understanding of the nature of younger soul choice having had them.

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To look at each stage in more detail see:

Stage 1. The Infant Soul

Stage 2. The Baby Soul

Stage 3. The Young Soul

Stage 4. The Mature Soul

Stage 5. The Old Soul

Soul levels in the human population

The six or seven billion people on the planet span the whole range of stages, but the average is said to be somewhere just past the mid-point of stage 3 (see chart below). In other words, this world is currently dominated by Young souls whose primary focus is competitive self-advancement.

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The seven steps within each stage

Within each stage there are seven discrete steps to go through. In the Michael teachings, they are called ā€œlevelsā€, so in each stage we proceed from 1st level to 7th level. Calling these ā€œlevelsā€ can be a bit confusing (since Newton refers to the five major stages as ā€œlevelsā€), so I sometimes prefer to call them ā€œstepsā€.

So each stage of reincarnation has seven distinct learning steps. For example, we begin the whole journey at step 1 as Infant souls, learn that lesson, then undertake step 2 as Infant souls, and so on. On completing the 7th step of the Infant stage, we then begin the 1st step of the Baby stage.
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The early steps in any stage are about experiencing life at this new stage of evolution, learning the essential lessons through appropriate experiences.

The later steps are about expressing those lessons, demonstrating this level of consciousness in action.

For example, in the Young soul stage, the first three steps ā€” from 1st level Young soul to 3rd level Young soul ā€” are about discovering the meaning of free will and self-determination; the last three steps ā€” 5th level Young soul to 7th level Young soul ā€” are about demonstrating the meaning of free will and self-determination in action. (The middle step ā€” 4th level Young soul ā€” is about consolidating the lessons learned.)

The first step or level of any stage is like putting a toe in the water; the final step is like teaching others how to swim:

1st Level Initiation into the new stage. ā€œToe in the water.ā€ First glimpses of the new consciousness. We come to recognise that there is a whole new way of being ahead of us, and we respond to the call, even though as yet it is beyond our comprehension.
2nd Level Building foundations. Wading in and out. Comparing and contrasting the old and new consciousness. We come to understand what is essential and different about this higher level, though it still remains ā€˜aheadā€™ of us, not quite within us.
3rd Level Rising to the challenge. Taking the plunge. We determinedly commit ourselves to actively embrace and explore the new consciousness.
4th Level Integration. Relaxing into it, ā€œenjoying the water.ā€ We now identify ourselves with this way of understanding self, life and others ā€“ this is our truth. We fully incorporate and consolidate the new consciousness into our own being.
5th Level Expression. Splashing about ā€“ ā€œLook at me!ā€ We openly share and communicate our new, true sense of self and of lifeā€™s meaning. We feel drawn to broadcast our truth, to ā€œgo publicā€ with it.
6th Level Demonstration. Giving value and benefit to others. ā€œBeing a life guard.ā€ Our new consciousness is put to the test. We also burn off any outstanding karma incurred in the earlier steps of this stage.
7th Level Mastery. Peak performance. We have complete understanding and control of our awareness at this level. We know exactly what we are doing. We may feel like a role model. Hmmā€¦ Whatā€™s next?

This sequence of seven steps is repeated through each stage, making 35 steps in all from the beginning of reincarnation to the end.

In case youā€™re wondering, Iā€™m at the 5th level of the Mature soul stage. My current lifeā€™s lesson is about outwardly expressing my Mature soul consciousness.

Many lives

So, we start our evolutionary journey at level 1 of stage I (as ā€œ1st Level Infant soulsā€) and end it at level 7 of stage 5 (as ā€œ7th Level Old soulsā€).

There are 35 steps in all. And each single step requires at least one lifetime to complete.

A single step can be done in one lifetime but often thatā€™s too big a stretch, so an initial life may undertaken as a taster, followed by one or two more which really go for it.

Sometimes a life is interrupted, and the soul will just have to start over in the next life. Also, some lives are undertaken for reasons other than the specific intent to develop. For example, one lifetime might be undertaken primarily to assist another soul in their development. And some lives are taken on primarily for the death experience, for karmic reasons. These can be very short, of the order of days, weeks or months.

Taking into account all the gaps spent in the non-physical state between lives, a single step is typically accomplished in about 100-300 years of Earth time.

The whole journey of 35 steps usually takes well over 100 lifetimes. Hence, the whole journey is likely to take of the order of 7,000-8,000 years, but possibly a lot more if the population is low and opportunities to incarnate are few.

Questions and Answers

Coming back again and again sounds dreadful. Why donā€™t we just give up and be done with it? Canā€™t I just decide that this is my last time?

You cannot skip any of the steps, nor would you want to (from the soulā€™s perspective). You wouldnā€™t rent a movie but then skip to the final credits just to avoid the whole process of sitting through the movie. In fact, itā€™s more like a computer game. You are playing the game because you want to, and at some level you actually love it. And you know perfectly well that you need to master one level before you can move on to the next level. Thatā€™s what the game is all about.

Who says?

Thereā€™s no tyrannical deity controlling the game, forcing you to keep at it, deciding who gets to ā€œgraduateā€ and who doesnā€™t. Itā€™s just the natural dynamic of life and the evolution of consciousness. A tadpole cannot suddenly transform into a full-grown frog. A baby human cannot suddenly take on a professional career or family responsibilities. Thereā€™s a natural, inevitable sequence to go through. And weā€™ve all signed up for it.

But why? Whatā€™s it all about?

Well, at the level of spirit or essence, all is one, all is love, all is joy. This is all very nice, but consciousness longs to experience more and more of what there is to experience, the utter richness and fullness of life.

How does it do that?

By fragmenting into zillions of conscious entities, each of whom has its own experiences and perspective, and each of whom can make its own choices about what to experience. Any soul can choose to continue being submerged in all-that-is, albeit with little sense of self. Alternatively, any soul can choose to undergo the experience of life in a separate physical form, interacting with other souls in their own physical forms. This is the ultimate way to experience oneself as a self.

And thatā€™s why we are here?

We have all made this choice: to use the human form as a vehicle to help us become more conscious of ourselves as the amazing beings we are. The aim is to experience every possible experience that enables us to emerge more and more consciously and fearlessly as ourselves. We begin as helpless infants for whom the experience of separate existence is quite terrifying. But we end as autonomous, self-realized beings for whom human existence is the most amazing way of being, feeling joyful and free and sharing love with the whole of life.

Cinematherapy: what does it do? It teaches you to feel.

FeelingsMovies with good actors do it better…

American actors are mostly useless, but it may be because American directors have no empathy? And yet some of the most missing feelings I got from American TV series I have watched through Netflix. I have recently learned family love, and being able to choose, ultimately, what is win-win… in a series I am watching now, Blue Bloods about a Irish family of cops in New York City. I also had a peek at something I didn’t know I wanted to feel: how religion is for people who have faith…

I don’t know if it is the actors or the di

It is all about where the finger is pointing.

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We all want change. The circumstances to change, others to change… We want people to change to what we deem the correct or good way to be.

We want reality to be different.

We put our attention to what’s wrong, in our view, what is missing, in our view.

In essence, we want the world to conform to our norms.

I am describing, to a more or less degree, humanity… though a segment of the population is very loud about it, very verbal about it: activists and campaigners.

The number one ingredient to become an