I just realized something: following an already established process, going step by step, is a whole different capacity than creating one.
I am weak at both, but I am literally unwilling to spend my limited energies to create a process.
The resistance is so strong, my neck and shoulders are hurting.
What is that about?
There are a lot of ways to analyze humans and their behaviors, and one of them is through conation, which is a, I guess, Latin word for inclinatio
Today was my errands day. It is also the only day during the week when I talk to anyone.
And as you know, talking when I have echo, someone who hears me is the most meaningful activity for me.
I did have private clients for massage, and I did it for 16 years… Giving a massage is not meaningful for me. So I picked and chose, and filtered, and screened the people that wanted a massage: If I didn’t feel that there will be a meaningful conversation, that I would be heard, I didn’t take them as a client.
Hey, it’s my life, and my fulfillment is what it is supposed to be organized around.
I am unabashed
You can’t win the bets you don’t make. You can’t win the arguments you don’t engage in. You can’t win without taking risks.
If you look at me, and can see, you’ll see a person with severe dyslexia, serious holes in her brain from two episodes of brain damage.
What does this mean? This means that I make a lot of mistakes, mistakes most people would not make…
Couple that with a quick-start personality, and you get a lot of failures, a lot of mistakes, a lot of screw-up… and, surprisingly a lot of wins.
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I had an interesting insight yesterday: you don’t know what it feels like to have courage available to you.
When you apply courage, it just feels like you are doing what you are doing, what you were afraid of. Normal.
Which indicates to me, that courage is a paradigm-shifter.
Paradigm is like a glass ceiling. A one-side mirror. When you are in a higher paradigm, you can see what is below you, but if you are still in a lower paradigm, you cannot see what’s above. In fact you don’t know there is something, anything.
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I want you to learn something from it: my process, how to write intelligent emails (not mine, lol) and how to look at my articles in a constructive way. Also, if you are someone like a doctor, a scientist, my method probably drives you crazy… I seem disorganized, have no answers to many questions… I have had people quit my programs complaining about that. I this article I explain why things are the way they are, why I work the way I work… It’s obvious that it’s not for everybody… no clear cut anything…. 🙁 Lot Asking what those capacities are, those seven is a little dumb, but just think about it. What does everyone who went to school has to have as capacity? Reading, using language, i.e. writing ans speaking, adding numbers, recognizing faces, smells, sounds, telling the time, basic stuff. You may be able to cook. But they are not capacities: they use capacities, but they are behaviors… Parents You have been choosing, consistently to be a fat flightless turkey, in spite of your DNA that has flying as a capacity. Yesterday I activated the capacity of Process for a handful of people… and it seems that this is a crucial capacity… Here are some interesting insights reading people’s notes who just got the Process capacity activated T from England writes. She now has Instead they should ask questions that relevant… I wonder why they don’t think to answer relevant questions. Questions like what happens when a really smart man has a daughter? How come that women, in general, are less capable, less able to make it in the world? And the answer doesn’t live in the brain: it lives in the DNA. Children inherit a combination of their parents’ DNA. A child can be smart, even brilliant as a potential, socialization will force I can see that I need to change more things than one… especially guessing… I find it irresistibly funny… lol… even though I am not sure what is making me laugh out loud. But it tickles my funny bone that all my habits fly in the face of process. Ego is trying to assert itself, yelling that it’s boring… Some 30 years ago I participated in a seminar series on and for creativity. I have one thing I still remember: Why my “system” seems so unorganized… hard to follow… and more
Please read my email exchange with an exceptional student of mine… What if you only have seven capacities? Or eight… or even nine?
The less capacities you have the closer you are to the bottom.
You may be able to clean.
You may be able drive… Your free will, your choice is mostly inside the question: shall I shrink or shall I grow?
You have been choosing the shrink most of your life… and you ended up on my site with a meager number of capacities, hoping to get more out of life than you are getting. Your smarts don’t live in your brain. Comparing brains is a favorite job of scientist, but they are on the wrong track.
Your smarts don’t live in your brain. Comparing brains is a favorite job of scientist, but they are on the wrong track. The capacity of accomplishment… the capacity of process
I have tested every single person who I deal with regularly, and none of them have the “process” capacity turned on.
What do you use to avoid process?
I just noticed that guessing is not a good method in process… neither is faking it, winging it, etc. It’s not a process if someone else cannot follow in your footstep! Ugh.