I have been re-reading Dan Millman’s The Life You Were Born To Live.
I don’t know why I am reading it, but here is what I have found that is worth mentioning:
- What used to be too much English is suddenly clear, concise, and applicable. The text didn’t change, I did. Obviously I am playing with a fuller deck…
- I get, again and again reminded of my Achilles heel: I have a missing capacity that is probably responsible for many of my failures, and all of my no successes.
My missing capacity, the bane ((a deadly poison (often used in combination, as in the names of poisonous plants): wolfsbane; henbane. 3. death; destruction; ruin)) of my existence, my Achilles Heel ((An Achilles heel is a weakness in spite of overall strength, which can actually or potentially lead to downfall. While the mythological origin refers to a physical vulnerability, idiomatic references to other attributes or qualities that can lead to downfall are common.))
- I first realized I had this problem in the third year of my architecture studies: we were supposed to make a plan to have labor ready through the different phases of building a project, and put it on a kind-of map for the site manager.
I found my Godzilla in that: I had no idea… blank mind, no concept, sorry, can’t do. I passed the class, barely, but the experience left me pondering my defective brain.
- Second time I realized that there was something wrong when I was living in a one-room apartment that I wanted to make into a one-bedroom… floors, wall paper, wiring, building a new kitchen… lots of moving part.
I didn’t sleep for weeks, because I was trying to figure out what to do first, next and next… I got literally ill from all that pondering and no sleep.
- And third time when I had to move, in a rush, a whole house to three locations… I messed up, of course.
So, here I am now, activating capacities. Setting a lofty goal to take humanity to the next level of evolution… but I put on my shoes before my pants… Ridiculous.
I guess this is part of dyslexia, a brain aberration… Maybe it can’t be fixed… And maybe it can.
I activate a capacity called “process”.
Next thing I know an ad pops up on my computer about a magic method to fix your life and your brain… sold on ClickBank… I don’t trust anything sold on ClickBank… But doesn’t what I do sound exactly like that?
You pay me $25 and I snap my fingers, and voila you have the capacity opened. Oh yeah?
I question myself too. Maybe even more than you question me…
My fundamental issue is trust. I question everything, trust nothing. Not even what I do… so it’s time to let it loose… and question: is what I do b.s. or am I going to be able to activate a capacity, I call “Process” through the method I use to activate people’s capacities, with visible, tangible, amazing results.
OK… you are my witness, the experiment is on.
If it fails, then I am a quack.
If it succeeds, then I may still be a quack, but what I do works.
I have a way to make sure I use the still non-existent capacity: two of my reclaim clients desperately need me to be accurate in the next step: both are building a business.
So I have plenty of opportunities to be stupid, to nudge the capacity to make it actually work, if it is on now. If… lol
I am scared. And I am excited…
I just want to be sure… If it fails, it fails publicly. Luckily I still have lots of skills I can make money with… and 159 working capacities.
Stay tuned… you’ll be the first to know.
PS: As I am reflecting on how this shows up in my life and in my work, I see that there is a profound case of inability to set up a strategy… because I can only see 2-3 steps ahead… really bad for business, and for life.
Read the original article: Is Sophie a fake? Can she activate a DNA capacity for herself? A capacity she obviously never had?