As I have said in other articles before, we have several cycles going on in our lives.

What I didn’t say about the cycles is this: earliest incidents of disappointment, pain, abuse, loss create them. The length of the cycle is fixed, and it is correlated to the age when the incident happened.

OK, after this preamble, I’d like to share a cycle I haven’t spoken about: the cycle in which I lose the will to live. I lose enjoyment. It’s not fun.

I am probably at the deepest point of the cycle right now. And until a few minutes ago, life was showing up and an is… All life held, success, money, love, relationships showed up as: this is how it is, there is nothing you can do about it.

As you see, even at a vibrational level of above 900, one is still part of this world… in fact, 900 is only 47% of the way to the highest a human can go and still be called human…

The difference between 900 and the under 200 where most of you are, is that the moment I could get in touch with a sense of loss, sadness, (tears in the eyes, tight throat) I could ask a different question:

Could I be happy with exactly how it is, without anything having to change for me to be happy?

Now, two things about that: I declared hitting bottom. Who knows where bottom is. I remember bottom of this same cycle being in a psych ward heavily medicated. So this, by no means was “real” bottom… there is no real bottom, even death may not be a real bottom.

So the question came from the sadness that all chance is lost if I die. I have been playing with the idea of willing myself to die. Hey… it’s one of the symptoms of this cycle, don’t get caught up in it… please. You’ll lose the lesson if you do.

So the first step was to declare bottom. And the second step, in the loss of all hope, all hope for change, for rescue, for divine intervention, the question came: could I be happy with myself and my world, exactly the way it is, and exactly the way it isn’t?

Now, this is very advanced stuff, because with that question you pull ALL POWER back to yourself. You become 100% cause. Nothing and no one has power over you, nothing and no one has the power to call the shot of how it is.

This is where I am now.

In another article I’ll report on what I did next…

The darkness has disappeared, but without the next step it will come rushing back… Guaranteed.

PS: that is why it is so important for people whose attachments are pulled to join the Reclaim. Without actions consistent with the “new reality” it goes back to how it was… faster than you can blink.

If you are one of those who didn’t join Reclaim, would you care to share?

You can also come to the Wednesday Open Mic session: I’d love to hear from you.

Read the rest of the article: The cycles of energy: the will to live and its cycle… the ups and downs of life